Day 3 Relapses and motivational quotes on index cards are today's pet peeve

So, I finished the book Feel the Fear and Do it Anyway. I decided to rope my best friend into working through the different programs, steps, or whatever the shit's called. One of the items was to give love since that is the whole purpose of our lives (as far as the author's concerned). I'm trying to buy into it. I'm trying to fight for this shitty life, still. She told me to contact current and past people who've had any significance in my life and tell them why I'm thankful for what they taught me. I wrote The Narcoleptic with my list of things. She also said if you're feeling resentful also tell them you wish them well in life. From the outset, I had a problem with that stipulation. There are some people who, for varying reasons, I do NOT wish well. He is one of them. I said it anyway, in the spirit of bettering myself. He responded that he wishes me well too. That sent me spiraling back down the rabbit hole of "he's never coming back, he doesn't like me, and he doesn't want me. I hate men. Am I to never date again? Was the brief epoch I had with him all the happiness I was to be awarded in this life?" Round and round surrounded by sheets of tears. Clearly this may have been a bit premature. I wrote others and I feel fine about them. Him? I thought we would be together forever. Funny how forever lasted 2 months and some change. All I'm left with now is resentment.
My therapist is going to have to earn her keep. I need to figure out how to let him go knowing we won't ever be back together. I need to reconcile never dating, having sex, and/or companionship again. I need some concrete answers and techniques about how to accomplish this AND be content with life. She has her work cut for her. I will keep this blog updated with what she says.