Day 17 - Pet peeve: It's a man's world and marriage is the cure all

Before I get into this, I just want to say that I totally think that whoever is reading this will find the love they want in this lifetime. I really do. Ok. Well, maybe not all of you, unfortunately, but a good amount of you. I'm always more optimistic about other people's futures than I am about my own. History has proven to me that I'm too much of an outlier to make it work with someone. You, however? You got it made in the shade. :)

Also, I'm not saying monogamy is the right way for everyone. Your relationship is yours to tweak as you and your partner(s) see fit. I am only talking about people (men. what can I say?) who tell falsehoods so as to trick people into making a decision based upon a lie. Those fuckfaces.

Onto the things I want to get into.
I always say it's a man's world because for the most part it really and truly is. Almost anything the average man desires he can get when it comes to the love of a woman and sex, at the very least. I'm a moderately intelligent woman(yikes! I still can't believe someone let me become an adult.) with fair to middling looks. Depending on a man's desires I could be bumped up to cute because of my dimples or sexy because of my long (albeit, dimpled) legs and large boobs. I should be able to find a decent companion, right? One would think so, but one would be muthafuckin wrong. I have only had 1 (lift one finger and that is the number I'm referring to) relationship that lasted over a year and I really don't count it because it was long distance for 9 months and we had broken up, argued, and been involved in domestic abuse by the 10th month when he was finally in my city. I have only ever been ok with a dude for 30 consecutive days and that was The Narcoleptic. Everyone else was just a bunch of sporadic, cheating, useless substitute teachers.

Some of my friends say every man cheats. Well, that's something awesome to look forward to, eh? Nothing like a bout of HIV and Herpes Simplex II (or anything in between) to look forward to when you're in a committed relationship. Dudes who can't even give me an orgasm have the audacity to be cheating? Are you KIDDING me?

If I only ever say this one good thing about The Narcoleptic it will be that he didn't cheat. I can say that with, let's say, 70% certainty. Lol. Where will I ever find another non-cheater? Where, Sway? Where? I'm actually quite panicked about this. Men seem to think it's not "natural" to be monogamous as if monogamy isn't a choice. Like their dick just drags them somewhere, and fucks women, without their consent. If it were natural, since we're of the same species, wouldn't the women they're telling this lie to have the very same issue? We are of the same species, correct? My loins don't drag me here, there, and everywhere just hopping on dicks without my knowledge.

Another man made thing that men and women subscribe to: you're single until you're married. When women start subscribing to bullshit that's when I know there's no hope for me. What one woman won't do, the next one will, apparently. Let's go over this you're single until you're married business and why it's always directed at the woman so she'll feel shitty because of the whole milk and cow scenario. Soooo, basically this COMMITTED, SERIOUS relationship I just engaged in with you, for fucking years, that means nothing to you. You have no responsibilities to me at all until you sign that license? Um, the fuck I think not. How can I marry someone who doesn't care about my well being? Are we supposed to just marry strangers the day we see a fine one in the streets? Tell me. HOW do people think this is supposed to work? If marriage is so serious, then how do you go from eh, I can take or leave your ass without a backwards glance to I love you and want to be with you FOREVER. Forever is a long damn time and I'm going to need the years before The Big Day to mean something. Also, people divorce their spouse e'erday, b. Better look up the stats. While people are trying to shit talk women for having boyfriends and babies, someone should remind them that over 50% of married people get divorced. That's over half. Why is it only detrimental the woman? So, this fool lies and makes false promises, but I'm the one with the problem? Um, how about the narcissistic, lying sociopath? Did he stand out as someone to be schooled on some things? Don't try to sell me no bullshit marriage dreams like that's the cure for cheating and an overall shitty attitude towards our relationship. Ugh. I assure you if I told some man I'm single until I'm married story 3 years into us living together he's going to have some questions about what EXACTLY that allows me to do. Especially if we've been talking about marriage.
So basically, don't trust a man but if you don't marry a man, then you're an old, bitter bitch who can't hold onto a man? I can't take this shit, people. Who wrote the rules on this shit? Who decided this was a fun game? The rules are mad confusing, yo, and I'm damned if I do and damned if I don't. It's like playing dominos with someone who is about to lose so they upturn the table. At that point, that person can't play anymore, usually. However, in this instance we were like, nah, nah, let's ALL play this stupid ass game. How did this even pick up steam? It sounds ridiculous and has since I first heard it.
Aside:
I've mostly been listening to books, applying for jobs and wallowing in self-pity. It's not looking good. I can't figure out how I got here, but I think I've been saying that since I was at least 17 years. At least. I never know how I got somewhere only that I know it's definitely not where I want to be.