Placebos

Don't play with people who can't sleep, medical professionals. Why would you give me sugar pills instead of Ambien. Now I'm wondering should I take a second one and if that will lead to accidental overdose. Or at least accidental oversleeping which I can't do on today of all days because: vote.
Today was my first day back at work. I spent approximately 30 minutes in the bed and shower combined, crying and thinking, Oh God. Please send me into a fatal crash down a ravine before I arrive. God has cancelled all requests from my line, apparently. Hmmph. It wasn't terrible, though. However, remember when I told Heavy Chevy I'm not up to being friends? Apparently that means fuck me and what he says goes. When therapy and self help is the fucking gift that keeps on giving. Out of all the people I would want undying love and devotion from? He doesn't even place.
I have a hard time sleeping and an even harder time trying to be the optimal temperature to actually get to sleep. My temps off and my sleeping pill abandoned me. Hopefully you guys are faring much better.

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